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Dec. 19th, 2024 09:09 pm XD dArK tHoUgHtS r HaUnTiNg mE 2nite </3
aLL aLoNe n fEeLiNg sO uNwAnTeD ;_; :'(
CuTTiNg dEeP iNtO mY eM0 s0uL </3
sLiPPinG aWaY... LoSiNg aLL c0nTr0L :'{
HeArT iS dYiNg... fAdInG 2 bLaCk )':
n0 1 uNdErStAnDs... i'LL nEvEr c0mE bAcK T_T
H0pE iS g0nE... aLL tHaT's LeFt iS pAiN </3
tHiS LiFe oF mInE... iS aLL iN vAiN ;-;
wHy Am I hErE... jUsT 2 cRy? :'(
tRaPPeD iN tHiS w0rLd oF eNdLeSs LiEs T.T
wHeN dArKnEsS c0mEs... i'LL LeT iT fL0w </3
eMbRaCiNg tHe V0iD... tHe 0nLy wAy 2 g0 ;_;
sTaTiC </3
Dec. 19th, 2024 09:06 pmDaRk Th0tS c0nSuMiNg Me Rn T_T LiKe StAtiC n0iSe... ThIs BrAiN w0nT LeT mE b </3
RaZ0r EdGe & eMpTy R00mZ ;_; TrApPeD iNsIdE mY HeAd... ImPeNdiNg D00m :'{
My HeArT bEaTs sL0w... FaDiNg bLaCk </3 L0sT iN tHiS v0iD... n0 TuRniNg bAcK T.T
H0peLeSs WaStE oF TiMe n SpAcE :'( TrApPeD BeHiNd ThIs SmILiNg FaCe ;-;
Y eVeN tRy WhEn aLL iS g0Ne </3 JuSt An0tHeR eM0 s0Ng t_t
iN sHaD0wS DeEp WhErE n0 1 SeEs )': i'LL fAdE aWaY... FiNaLLy FrEe... </3
(no subject)
Jul. 5th, 2024 04:17 pmTwenty something but I feel like fifty,
Guys don't want me, so I self-slaughter.
Drugs are my lover, smoke my life giver,
All that's left now is memories of being slaughtered.
Ruins on Saturday nights, sunburning red
Got a death wish, lost my soul,
Cocaine is fun but fuck I'm fed up,
Living like this, it's no longer fun,
Please stop looking at me, it's painful you see,
I just want to be left alone, with cigs in my hand.
Cuz every word they say makes my skin crawl,
And all I want is for them to understand,
That cuts bring solace, if only for a day,
I am already gone, down this dusty path,
Guys think I'm a freak, so I took to tweeting,
To try and get attention that isn't meant for freaking.
Guys don't want me, so I self-slaughter.
Drugs are my lover, smoke my life giver,
All that's left now is memories of being slaughtered.
Ruins on Saturday nights, sunburning red
Got a death wish, lost my soul,
Cocaine is fun but fuck I'm fed up,
Living like this, it's no longer fun,
Please stop looking at me, it's painful you see,
I just want to be left alone, with cigs in my hand.
Cuz every word they say makes my skin crawl,
And all I want is for them to understand,
That cuts bring solace, if only for a day,
I am already gone, down this dusty path,
Guys think I'm a freak, so I took to tweeting,
To try and get attention that isn't meant for freaking.
(no subject)
May. 11th, 2024 07:14 pmi lay in bed staring at the ceiling
thinking of ways to hurt myself
without getting caught by my family
the blades are out and they're all shiny
i carve my name into my thighs
it feels so good and it makes me giggle
i cut deep watching the blood spill
it makes me feel less numb and dull
like i'm not lost in the abyss
the little razor is my salvation
it's what keeps me going strong
my best friend and my protector
i masturbate after the cutting
feeling empty yet somehow whole
its the only time i can express myself
i rub my clit until i orgasm
tasting my own cum with my fingers
feeling like a slut but i don't care
i just don't know what to do with this life
just a cycle of strife
i feel lost in this tangled mess
thinking of ways to hurt myself
without getting caught by my family
the blades are out and they're all shiny
i carve my name into my thighs
it feels so good and it makes me giggle
i cut deep watching the blood spill
it makes me feel less numb and dull
like i'm not lost in the abyss
the little razor is my salvation
it's what keeps me going strong
my best friend and my protector
i masturbate after the cutting
feeling empty yet somehow whole
its the only time i can express myself
i rub my clit until i orgasm
tasting my own cum with my fingers
feeling like a slut but i don't care
i just don't know what to do with this life
just a cycle of strife
i feel lost in this tangled mess
(no subject)
May. 8th, 2024 06:43 amMy face is puffy and my eyes half dead
All because of the cocaine binge I had at 3 in the morning
I don’t want to live, I want the final dose
Thinking of cutting wrists is less depressing than going to work
The mirror is telling me I look tired and jaded
Suddenly, I’m feeling high on life, for a minute at least
But then I notice my bills are piling up and my family hates me
(no subject)
May. 8th, 2024 06:09 amHis heart is a buzzkill – a hammer shattering my soul, why can’t you love me at all?
Ig, you see me as a mere object – not worthly of your time or attention, just another worthless one added
Rejection, pain, heartache, tears – what’s so wrong with me? why do you hate me so much? Do you think I'll ever find someone?
Ig, you see me as a mere object – not worthly of your time or attention, just another worthless one added
Rejection, pain, heartache, tears – what’s so wrong with me? why do you hate me so much? Do you think I'll ever find someone?
